Thanks, Christina. You are like a bedrock of stability in my online work. :) I am going to try and do more, even though it means I will grow to despise my computer. A love/hate relatiionship. Stay tuned.
I really appreciated your piece on Porn Addiction posted on Transitional Male.
I identify as a gender queer woman. I've been on testosterone for about a year and a half. My biggest gender struggle over the last handful of years has been to figure out who and what the hell I am. I don't identify as a man but for most of my life have existed in a largely undefined, unnamed gender playground somewhere between two extreme ends of the mataphorical gender spectrum, typcially gravitating more towards the masculine end of said spectrum. I don't feel any real sort of connection to taking on a trans man ID but I'm also not your average woman, butch dyke or otherwise. Since starting testosterone, I don't come any closer than I have most of life to finding full acceptance in women's spaces and now find myself largely rejected from trans spaces. I'm stuck in some strange no-man's-land. Most days I feel like I'm walking some sort of creepy path that I've largely created on my own without alot of resources, information, and support.
I attempted to suscribe to a moderated trans FTM listserv several months ago and was rejected because I don't ID as a trans man. I understand the desire to maintain safe,trans-guy space and at the same time, I hate not having access to support and information that is relevant to my personal experience. The primary reason I had wanted access to the list was to pose some questions related to the impact testosterone has had on my sexual life. I think I share several of the thoughts, feelings, and ideas you spoke of in your first piece for Transistional Male and have felt pretty alone and isolated in this experience.
I'm looking forward to any future writings. Thanks Much!
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Great piece Deen, I look forward to reading more.
XO,
Christina
Thanks, Christina. You are like a bedrock of stability in my online work. :) I am going to try and do more, even though it means I will grow to despise my computer. A love/hate relatiionship. Stay tuned.
Deen,
I really appreciated your piece on Porn Addiction posted on Transitional Male.
I identify as a gender queer woman. I've been on testosterone for about a year and a half. My biggest gender struggle over the last handful of years has been to figure out who and what the hell I am. I don't identify as a man but for most of my life have existed in a largely undefined, unnamed gender playground somewhere between two extreme ends of the mataphorical gender spectrum, typcially gravitating more towards the masculine end of said spectrum. I don't feel any real sort of connection to taking on a trans man ID but I'm also not your average woman, butch dyke or otherwise. Since starting testosterone, I don't come any closer than I have most of life to finding full acceptance in women's spaces and now find myself largely rejected from trans spaces. I'm stuck in some strange no-man's-land. Most days I feel like I'm walking some sort of creepy path that I've largely created on my own without alot of resources, information, and support.
I attempted to suscribe to a moderated trans FTM listserv several months ago and was rejected because I don't ID as a trans man. I understand the desire to maintain safe,trans-guy space and at the same time, I hate not having access to support and information that is relevant to my personal experience. The primary reason I had wanted access to the list was to pose some questions related to the impact testosterone has had on my sexual life. I think I share several of the thoughts, feelings, and ideas you spoke of in your first piece for Transistional Male and have felt pretty alone and isolated in this experience.
I'm looking forward to any future writings. Thanks Much!
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